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Curiousity – Part One

Compassionate Innocent Curiosity – Some Thoughts That Came Up This Morning

In my meditation practice this morning, an idea, word, thought ran through my head numerous times. The word. . . Curiosity. I will add to it now. . atorvastatin price. “innocent curiosity”. Though I must say, curiosity is by it’s nature innocent (innocent being without assumptions, without judgment like true curiosity). Bringing a sense of compassionate innocent curiosity to my seated meditation practice (Hmmm. . . compassionate is good to add too because it denotes a softness and openness to uncomfortable feelings) has been a factor in enabling me to soften and open. When I am looking compassionately at a feeling in my body, when I open to a childlike investigation of that feeling or thought or emotion, I feel good, even when I am not feeling so good. Does that make sense to you?

Sometimes the phrase, “that’s interesting” runs through my head while I am sitting. What’s interesting is not the story around the feeling, but just the feeling itself. The way I might discover a tightness in my chest (as I did this morning), that I didn’t know was there. And then sitting with that tightness without feeling like I have to fix it or make it better. That’s interesting too!

Sometimes, more and more these days, I note the connection from a body feeling to an emotion or an emotion back to a body feeling. That is always interesting! Especially, when the body feeling comes first.

There was a study that was referenced on Radio Lab (a really great show on Public Radio) that said something like the following. Let’s say you walk into a room and see a friend of yours dead on the floor. What they discovered is that your body actually “knows” what has happened before your mind does. Before your mind can create the story around it. Why this is particularly interesting is because it is saying that it is the body feeling that triggers the mental imaging. We often say how our mind and emotions can cause our body to contract. However, it works the other way too, where we have an uncomfortable feeling in our body. Our mind takes this information, then, and creates a story around it. For instance, the body might feel that sort of tingly feeling it gets when you have a fight with a loved one. The mind then interprets this and remembers a disagreement you are currently having with a loved one and then you get angry around this disagreement. All this happened so fast and without you realizing that your mind just re-created the story based upon a feeling in the body. Fascinating, isn’t it?

In bringing that sense of curiosity, Compassionate Innocent Curiosity, into my meditation practice, I have found that I am better able to trace cause and effect more fluidly and with some newfound openness. Not that I can ever be sure of cause and effect in that way, but in seeing more connections I find myself saying to myself more and more, “ahh, that’s interesting”.